A Picture Worth a 1000 Wonders

Walking anywhere with my mom I hope we won’t spot any lambsquarter. If I see some and just stay quiet maybe she won’t notice. Because if she does notice, she’ll make me eat it. It’s light green slightly jagged leaves growing on a stalk have a shimmery powered look and I hate it’s taste. But Deborah loves for me to eat it, she says it’s so good for me. Her face lights up when we find some, “Oh, look! Lambsquarter! Eat the lambsquarter!”. Disgust wipes over my face but I have to do what she says so I pick the gross lambsquarter and force myself to eat it. It gets slightly slimy after chewing it and I really, really don’t like eating anything slimy, which is why oatmeal is my sworn enemy. At least lambsquarter is better than oatmeal.
When I’m outside without her, and I find lambsquarter, I rejoice at not having to eat it. “Haha, Lambsquarter, not this time!” I think to myself, relieved to escape it’s yuckiness. But sometimes I think how proud my mom would be if I ate it. And so I eat some. Then I run and tell her.
In our bus, when I say “I’m hungry”, Deborah always says “Well go outside and eat some plantain”. I don’t know when I ever didn’t know what plantain was. Blooming clusters of big, smooth, shiny green leaves close to the ground, growing in the sunshine. Soon tiring of plantain, it’s tough fiber making me thirsty, I go in the woods behind our bus to eat sassafras leaves that grow in the shade. They grow like tiny trees with sporadic big leaves in a variety of neat shapes. I love their neat shapes, and they taste good. Even though they get slightly slimy like lambsquarter, the taste makes up for it. So much better than lambsquarter or plantain. Sassafras tea is all the rage. The older boys dig up the roots to impress the grownups who make tasty, naturally sweet tea and a handful of broken sassafras sticks is a pretty cool thing to have and flaunt inside the house, they’re a yummy treat to chew on, especially when the older boys skin the bark off with their pocket knives.
Not my bus, just one of the countless buses  people lived in, tucked into the woods all over the place.

Not my bus, (ours didn’t have a cook stove), just one of the countless buses people lived in, tucked into the woods all over the place.

I know lots of good spots around our bus and 1st road now. A visitor with a camera came to Dogwood Blossom. Cameras were other worldly, I don’t know anyone here who has one. My mom says I can show him some stuff on 1st Rd for his pictures. I take him onto the road and we chat, I am not very shy because he is so nice, I like him, so words flow freely out of my mouth. I know he must be taking really important pictures with the black camera around his neck, because cameras are so rare and special. As we’re walking and chatting on the road, not too far from my bus, he says he wants to take my picture. My picture? Completely stunned, I don’t know what to do. No one has ever wanted to take my picture, I’ve never had my picture taken. We have some baby pictures of me, but those don’t count because I didn’t know I was getting my picture taken.
As a baby, in NY, before I can remember much. Memories kicked in soon when we moved to The Farm.

As a baby, in NY, before I can remember much. Memories kicked in soon when we moved to The Farm.

What do I do? I can barely breathe, this is so shocking and amazing. This is definitely the biggest deal that’s ever happened to me. What do you do to get your picture taken? How do I act? This is the most important thing I’ve ever done and I don’t want to ruin it but I’m not sure what I should do. I stop talking and just stand there and don’t do anything and he snaps my picture. It is over very fast, before I know it or can think too much harder about it. It didn’t hurt and I don’t feel too different. Actually, I feel worlds different. Someone took my picture! I can’t believe it! This is absolutely incredible! The excitement of being the focus of this magic technology fills my whole body and I feel so special, floating and smiling all day. I hug my mom as a new person who’s had their picture taken and can barely fall asleep that night in our bus wondering all about the picture. What will it look like? I cannot wait to see it. How will I ever be able to sleep or rest from the jittery excitement until I see it?

Eventually the man sends the picture to us. Wow, yep, that’s me! It’s really me, it’s really my picture! That’s the red checkered dress I was wearing, one of my favorite dresses! That’s the dirt road behind me! 1st Rd, across from our bus, where just me and no one else got their picture taken! Just me! The picture really worked! I can’t believe someone took my picture. It’s so stupendously wonderful and makes me feel so special, I will probably be happy forever.
My first picture portrait

My first picture portrait (picture of the picture).

(Note: I was trying to write stories in chronological order, but give up on that. It will all have to be edited into order later.)

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3 thoughts on “A Picture Worth a 1000 Wonders

  1. I stumbled on your blog from a friend of a friend… Your memories are so vivid, and just as if one of my daughters friends were telling me a story. Thank you for a peak into this world. Can’t wait for more.

  2. i was born in SF in ’64 . My Mom was from Santa Barbara, Ca . When she turned 18 , she went straight to SF .
    We lived a lot of places , but one place has always stayed in my memory .a Hippie Commune , maybe up atop of a mountain or hill area so where in North CA .
    This was a real Commune with big vats of Oatmeal on the stove at 5 am , huge hot pots of cereal& coffee , to feed the folks who called this place home . My Mom would be in charge every other week or something for the breakfast chore .
    I remember that we lived in a teepee teepee. It seemed big, and very cozy and warm always with a fire place burning right in the center of its raw hyde walls . There were buses, VW’s , tents , I imagine , maybe yurts and other teepee’s where other people and children stated. It seemed a ways from town as I recall grown ups being gone all day to town for supplies .
    I don’t recall actual buildings , except maybe the community food prep and dining area for everyone to be together at meal times . My memory is guessing at these things. It was such a impactful place to be aware of and I was so young so it was significant but also mixed in with other similar memories of the last 48 or so yes.
    I can’t seem to locate anything about it or where it was located . In CA of course , near Marin Co , I assume . But if anyone out there knows of this place that might help me remember – I would be grateful !
    I do remember a little blonde boy , younger than I , he was killed in the teepee he and his parents lived in . It caught on fire . I remember being so concerned and also a little stumped . I was maybe 5 and he was 4? Where were his parents ? It was a first death experience for me. We played together not too long before he was killed tragically . So, that’s a tough reality, one of many in this life .
    Other than that it’s all pretty vague and spotty as I recall those years . I am pretty sure my Mom called it , “6 Day School”
    Thank

    Lisa McNair

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